Work / Life Balance. What a loaded phrase. Does it exist? I used to say, ‘just love what you do and there’s no need for a balance.’ That’s what motivated me to leave consulting–I didn’t love it. I loved the perks (i.e. the airline miles, hotel points, free trips), but the work was mind-numbing to me. Being on the road for a job you’re not passionate about it draining.
I loveTrunk Club. It’s been really cool to help build a company from the very early days. Even now, four and a half years in, it’s just as thrilling. But as much as I love it, having a child has really turned my world upside down. My schedule just isn’t as flexible but I make it a priority to be with Harry every night before he goes to bed. That means: work guilt, mommy guilt, Jerome guilt (yes, pet guilt exists), friend guilt, spousal guilt.
Oh right, and I also have this blog. But honestly, it’s cathartic for me. I simply wouldn’t do this if I didn’t enjoy it. But.. don’t know if I could ever blog full-time; I just don’t know if I’m interesting enough or able to produce so that much content organically (but I’ll never say never).
I often get asked how I juggle so many things. I’ll be honest–I have no idea. Sometimes I have to stop and ask myself, ‘what’s this all for?’ (I’m philosophical like that) But then I remind myself that I’m enjoying the journey. I’ve become a hell of a lot more efficient at work–I have to be. I know I have a hard stop most days so I can be make it home to see the baby. Nothing is perfect–that’s for certain; I am the first to admit that I could change plenty of things. There are definite sacrifices and lessons learned–on the daily. I’m not afraid to say no. I know how to delegate. I know when to prioritize. I cherish my moments with my family. I take a lot of pictures and have our nanny send even more during the day. I stay in bed fifteen extra minutes, laying with Harry and Eric, even if it means I won’t be able to dry my hair for work. I haven’t taken a real vacation in a very long time. I can’t find the time to work out. I still make it a priority to trek four hours back to Ohio to see my mom, sister and her family, especially since my dad passed away. I take advantage of the fact that two out of my three siblings live in the city near me, because family is everything. I don’t hang out with friends nearly enough. Laying on separate couches with Eric while eating pizza after the baby goes to bed on a Saturday does not constitute a date night. Working full-time is hard, but rewarding, exciting and I love problem solving. Motherhood is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I love that little guy so it scares me.
Lastly, this blog is not an afterthought; it’s a big part of who I am right now. I blog because it’s fun to share snippets of my life and more importantly because it’s related to my career–I believe that fashion can make you feel good.